Merry meet to you all,

I have surived the loss of my cousin. Though I was unable to go up to michigan to say good bye in person, I did so in my heart. My roommate and I went out to the beach ( we go alot) and one of the days I got real quite while he was on shore cooking and while looking out over the bay, I told her I loved her and missed her. I knew she was free from illness now and I would always keep her in my heart. I did cry and when I heard my roommate coming up behind me I went under the water to shield him from my tears. I acted as if I was just wetting my hair.

be that aside I am not having a good year. at the moment still unemployed and strugling with paying bills with one income. I have a lead on a job but I most likely wont know till monday. I can only hope this will not turn out to be another dud.

I do not understand why my 'luck' is so bad these days. Ever since I was fired for reporting my dm I feel like I am being punished, even though I know I did the right thing.A couple times I have told potentchal empolyers the truth behind me losing my last job and all the truth got me was conserend looks and no call back. Both jobs I had the skills they needed and the experance.

I feel like I have lost my way and somehow have been diverted from my true path and I am not sure how to find my way back...

Blessed be to you all and may your lives be filled with all the good things in life.